I can't believe that I'm 30 weeks already. When this pregnancy started it felt like we had forever to go but now we've only got ten weeks left and I'm starting to worry that it's going by to fast! I'm happy to report that things have went along perfectly so far. We had our 30 week checkup yesterday and I'm down 30 pounds this pregnancy. The goal that my doctor and I set was to not gain any weight during this pregnancy so she's ecstatic that I've actually lost weight. I'm so happy that I've not had to go on insulin - I've really been staying on top of my blood sugars. It helps that Tim has been so supportive during this pregnancy and these last couple of weeks he's completely revised our eating plan again to make sure that the baby is getting what she needs and I'm eating what I'm supposed to. I think getting pregnant and realizing that our choices are immediately affecting her has really motivated the both of to exercise and eat better. It's payed off too because she's measuring right on time. Having a bigger baby is a huge concern because of my diabetes. Anyway, things are looking great and I couldn't be happier.
Of course, now that we've only got ten weeks left I can't stop thinking about labor and delivery. It seems forefront in my mind these days. I'm sure that's a natural concern for most pregnant women but it's scary to think that she's coming out one way or another. There's no going back now. I really want to have as natural of a birth as I can and I'm worried I won't be able to handle the pain so I'll choose an epidural. There's nothing wrong with having an epidural and I don't mean to make it sound like there is. I just want a different labor - I want to be able to walk and move and not be stuck in a bed. Plus, I'm terrified of needles. Anyway, my midwife assures me that no matter what happens during labor whether it's a natural birth, an epidural, or even a C Section that it will all be okay. She told me to be open to any possibility. That's amazing to me because when I first found out I was pregnant I thought for sure the only way she was getting here was through a C section. I didn't think my body would be able to deliver at all. But my body is strong and even though I'm carrying around extra weight I'm fully capable of having a normal delivery. That alone is reason to celebrate.