Thursday, January 28, 2016

Gender Reveal!

I'm so excited that we can finally announce that we are having a baby . . .  GIRL!!

This is a view of her bum and her legs.  The arrow is pointing at three white dots that indicate it's a girl!

Believe it or not, we've actually known it was a girl since week 13.  Because that's so early they tell you it's just a highly educated guess and they won't confirm it until week 18 or so.  We waited to tell until we knew for sure, though I was already positive, to announce the gender publicly. 

Originally we had planned on doing a gender reveal party and we weren't going to find out, because I can't keep secrets.  We were going to have our friend, who was throwing the party, find out and keep it a secret so we were surprised along with everyone else.  Unfortunately at week 13 we went for our 1st trimester screening and the doctor, who is not my OB, blurted out the gender.  Tim's mom was there and I accidentally told my mom a week a later.  (I said "she" when referring to the baby.)  So we decided since our moms already knew the gender we wouldn't do the party but we would instead get a cute little balloon pop photo to reveal the gender to the rest of the family.  It proved more difficult than I thought to keep that a secret.  By now most everybody already knows so we just decided to skip that part.  Can't say I'm a little bummed but I'm still pretty excited that it's a GIRL

It's crazy to me how much she's grown at 19 weeks.  Her arms and legs are proportionate and we got to see all of her fingers and toes.  I'm pleased to say there is 10 of each.  It's amazing to me, even still, that she's in there.  They tell me I have an anterior placenta which means it's in the front of the uterus and that's why I haven't felt her move around yet.  But it's so exciting each time we go to get an ultrasound that we can see her waving her arms and legs and wiggling around in there.  My favorite part, is listening to her heartbeat.  By far, it's the best sound in the world.  At least so far, haha.

Friday, January 22, 2016

Infertility . . .

So here we are approaching the 19 week mark (almost halfway done) and I still have a hard time believing that we are pregnant.  Part of it, I think, is that we haven't felt the baby move yet but for the most part I think it is still so surreal that we got pregnant in the first place.  You see, I was told I would not be able to conceive naturally.  Instead, I would need some kind of fertility treatment in order to get pregnant.

Let me back up a bit.  When I was 16 I was diagnosed with Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome, more commonly known as PCOS.  PCOS is an endocrine disorder but it's more like a disorder of many symptoms.  Obesity, diabetes, infertility, thyroid problems, irregular menstrual cycles, all of these are just part of the package.  When I was diagnosed they told me that it would be harder to maintain a healthy weight and that I would have difficulty conceiving.  When I was diagnosed with Diabetes in my early 20's I was much heavier and my doctor told me that diabetes and PCOS made fertility an unlikely event.  She said that with weight loss I could reverse the effects of my Type 2 diabetes and it would help with the PCOS symptoms so that I might be able to get pregnant.  I wasn't in a relationship so getting pregnant wasn't high on my priority list but losing weight was.  That proved to be very difficult.  I lost weight and gained it all back, then lost some again only to gain that back plus. 

Now here we are, 2.5 years into my relationship and things are getting more serious.  The topic of children came up.  I've always wanted kids and when Timothy expressed his desire for children I started to get worried that wouldn't be a possibility for us.  So we went to the doctor to see what options we had for when we decided to move forward with starting our family.  I had to go through some really uncomfortable testing to make sure that I was producing eggs and there were no blockages in my uterus.  Everything checked out but we did find out that I wasn't ovulating so in order to get pregnant I would have to start with an oral medication to make me ovulate.  On top of that, because of my diabetes, my blood sugar was high.  We knew now wasn't the right time but now we knew that I could carry a baby.  I went home with the knowledge that I needed to get my blood sugar down and I needed to lose weight. 

Fast forward three months and my A1C had dropped from 7.9 to 7.1, which was still on the high side.  I wasn't dieting I was just concentrating on trying to make better eating choices.  It was working.  I didn't even weigh myself so I have no idea how much I lost, if anything, but I was looking thinner.  We hadn't gone back to talk about getting pregnant, both Tim and I were just concentrating on making better lifestyle choices.  One month after they had drawn my second A1C, I started to feel pretty crampy and bloated, usually signs of an impending period.  I didn't have regular cycles so I had no idea if it was late or on time or what was going on.  Because of all the testing and doctors visits we had just gone through, Tim was on this "You're Pregnant" kick.  I got tired of hearing it, because in my mind that wasn't a possibility, so I decided to buy a cheap pregnancy test just to get him to shut up - I was that certain I was getting my period.  I ended up being wrong, to my utter amazement, and have ended up hearing "I told you so" every day since.

The moral of this story is this:  The only guarantee in life is that we are going to die and anything is possible.  Just because I am overweight, had high blood sugar, and was a diabetic did not mean I could not get pregnant.  Get a second opinion.

Monday, January 11, 2016

Baby On Board!

I'm pregnant!!!!   Gah, I'm so over the moon excited that my little one is going to be here soon.  We decided to wait for a long time to announce that we were pregnant because there are a lot of risk factors to consider due to my weight and we wanted to make sure that everything was going well and baby was healthy.  Now that we are five months and the doctor assures us that everything is normal thus far, we are so excited to let the world in on our secret.  Baby wells is due to arrive June 18th, 2016.

Four Month Ultrasound

There is much more that I want to get into but I think for now, I'm just going to bask in the joy that we are expecting.