Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Meet Charlie

I'm officially in the dog house . . .

For bringing home a kitten.  Meet Charlie:

Charlie is a little female about 6-8 weeks old and she followed Kaila home yesterday morning while they were out running.  They didn't find any sign of her mother or owners.  I think she'd been left alone for a while because she is extremely skinny and she about devoured my hand when I gave her food-I don't think she'd eaten in a while.   She's super friendly though so it seems as if she'd been around people before.  She also got a clean bill of health from the vet with some instructions to get her shots soon and to fatten her up some. 

We have a couple of wiener dogs that don't know what to think about her.  They alternate between licking her like they're trying to taste her and thinking she's a squeaky toy they can chase.  Dudley, our male, keeps poking her with his nose to see if she'll run.  He keeps stressing over her so I"m hoping after a few days that he calms down otherwise we may have to find her a new home.  I hope it doesn't come to that.

Our first night last night went pretty well.  She slept most of the night but at about five she was up using the litter box, all by herself, and then it was meow time.  She would not stop crying!  My dad is NOT happy I brought her home so I was desperately trying to get her to quit crying.  Luckily she wasn't too loud so I'm hoping he didn't hear her.  She wouldn't go back to sleep though until I pulled out my soft blanket-then it was lights out.

Today she's taking some time getting used to everything and she's running around the house checking it all out.  She's been more vocal than I would like today and I'm not sure if it's because she just isn't used to the place or what.  I have no idea how to get her to quit either.  Any ideas and tips would be appreciated!  I've grown attached to the little squirt in the last couple of days and I'm hoping that it works out so she can stay.  I would hate to have to give her up. 

Monday, September 23, 2013

Non-Scale Victories

I have been so focused on losing weight recently that I've been stressing about all the little things I haven't been doing right-such as eating sugar.  Granted it's been a little out of control lately but I'm starting to wonder if it's more to do with the fact that I'm constantly thinking about NOT doing that I can't help but crave it.  It's actually been causing me a significant amount of stress and it's killing my motivation to be healthier and to work out. 

Because I've been so stressed and busy lately I decided to take this weekend and just go have fun.  I spent some time with my family, went shopping with my mom, and I quit worrying about work, eating, and losing weight.  I just spent time in the moment.  I still had a busy weekend and Saturday I pretty much ran non-stop but it was stuff that I wanted to do.  I got to socialize a little bit, catch up with family I haven't seen in a while, and I got to go shopping!

I did celebrate some amazing non-scale victories this weekend with my mom.  I got a free gift check from Lane Bryant in the mail for $25 so I went and tried on some clothes.  Plus they were having a big sale this weekend so I ended up getting double the clothes for my money.  While I was there I discovered that I'm now officially wearing a size 18 pants and it won't be long before I'm in a size 16!!  =D  I haven't been in a size 18 pants for YEARS.  I think the last time I was in that size was in high school but I honestly can't remember-it's been so long.  I also discovered that I'm able to wear a 2x shirt.  (That's down from a 4x by the way.)  It's still a tad tighter than I would like but the 3x is definitely too big on me now. 

Perhaps the most exciting part of the weekend for me was actually not trying on clothes.  It was buying my first pair of running shoes.  I have really been wanting a decent pair of running shoes but I've always been worried about the cost.  I went to the Nike outlet this weekend and I got a heck of a deal on a pair of shoes. Half off the original price and then an extra 20% off that.  I was so excited I snapped them right up!  I actually had to restrain myself from buying multiple pairs.  These ones will last me for a while before I'll have to replace them.  

I feel so rejuvenated after this weekend and I know that going forward some things have got to change.  I can't allow myself to get a place where I'm not motivated to be healthy.  I refuse to let myself go there.  It'll be a work in progress but I think my new running shoes will help me move forward!

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Boot Camp

To keep up with this new, harder phase of my life I recently participated in a boot camp.  Now mind you, this was the day after I did 100 dead-lifts.  Apparently my trainers think I can handle this kind of stuff.  I may have surprised myself a bit when I actually did.

Anyway, we got a bunch of people that we know to come over to our house for this boot camp.  There were eight participants total, two trainers, and a bunch of equipment set up in different stations.  It was a blast.  I got to see how I compare physically to people that I would say were healthier than I am-not that I should be comparing but who doesn't do that?  I actually did pretty well and it was a very tiring hour.  I conned Rebecca, one of my trainers, into taking some pictures of this fun event.  So without further ado:

Teaching me total balance.  I fell after she got this picture, haha.

These squats are killer!

Quick water break!

Push ups!

A little weight throwing!

Everyone loved this station.  It's a killer way to do our legs but it was nice to "rest"

Pull up crunches.  Freaking hard!

She forgot to jump

Pooped by the end

She just jumped on that thing and planted herself!

Some people did it just fine.  I didn't . . .

Our exhausted group

We actually had a really good time and now we're thinking about doing this every other weekend.  Anyone is welcome if you feel like joining in!

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

The Right Behaviors

Ttoday when I was reading Core Identity's post today about changing behaviors & the mistakes we make it made me think about my own changing behaviors.  Looking back at my I've realized that I've changed a lot of behaviors already - my eating habits being the most noticeable changes.  For instance, you no longer find me going through the drive through of Taco Bell-or any other fast food place, I stay away from sugary drinks like soda pop, kool-aid, or hard liquor and I especially stay away from heavy carbs like pastas, pizzas, cakes, donuts and things of that nature.

For all the incredible progress and changes I've already made, I still have a long way to go.  Trying to change my lifestyle is bar the biggest change I've ever made-and it's going to take doing it with little changes along the way.  I have many mental blocks that I'm still struggling with like telling myself I CAN do something instead of I can't or just simply trusting in myself.

None of these changes I've made or am trying to make would be possible at all if I was in an environment or surrounded by people that are or would be detrimental to what I'm trying to accomplish.  The hard truth is that before I started losing weight I surrounded myself with like minded individuals.  These are individuals, including my own family, that were like me:  obese, didn't work out, and weren't looking to change anything about their lives.

Luckily my family, and most of my friends, have rallied and we've been able to make some lifestyle changes together.  Some of my friends may not  follow the same regiment or lifestyle that I do but they don't let me fail when I'm with them.  They encourage me to stick to my diet, even when I'm not with them, and if we do happen to do something together than they make accommodations for my lifestyle.  They're willing to try new things and encourage me to keep being a better person.  Other "friends" haven't been so wonderful and have tried to sabotage me by encouraging me to eat things I shouldn't.  They try to tempt me to indulge in bad behaviors-even if it's as simple as getting reeses pieces at the movies or something worse-going to a buffet.  They flat out exploit my weaknesses and encourage me to give in to them.  While it's not their responsibility to keep me on the straight and narrow, they can surely make it very difficult for me.

The same goes with your environment.  If you allow yourself to be put in a situation, like going to a buffet, a bar, or hanging out with people you know are not good for you or do not support you than you are not going to be successful.  However, if you surround yourself with people that have the same goals, who will be supportive, and you stay in environments that are going to be conducive to your growth than you will surely see success.

By far, this is one of the changes I'm struggling with the most.  It's hard for me to look at friends I've had for years and make the decision to move on.  The simple fact is if I want to be successful than I have to start changing my behaviors.  Some of those behaviors are going to be down right difficult-like saying goodbye to a person you've known a long time.  I  don't want to have to do these things but I know that by doing so I will be able to have a healthier, happier life, and I will see the results I'm striving for.    

What are some behaviors you are struggling with modifying?

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

100 Burpees: Done & Done

I freaking did it!  Finally!  100 effing burpees!!

I was told that I would feel proud.  I am.
I was also told I would feel accomplished.  I do.

However, I can tell you-I don't ever want to do 100 of those suckers again.  That being said, I probably will.  They are truly a fantastic all body workout and I can gurantee that I burned a TON of calories doing them.  I know I was sweating like crazy by the time I was done.  Plus my trainers believes in making me push myself physically.  Can you believe that??  (In full disclosure-they usually do them with me.)

If you don't know what a burpee is, don't feel bad.  I didn't have a clue what they were either.  In fact I just called them up/downs.  Here's a short video on a proper way to do them.

Video aside, my burpees do not look like this.  I'm not quite at the level of fitness this guy is, almost, but not quite.  Mine are a little bit more modified than these ones otherwise I wouldn't be able to get in 100 of those suckers.  One day I'll be doing these like this guy-of course that means I'll probably have to keep practicing.  Ugh. 

Did I mention that I did these with weights?  I did 50 of them with no weights and 50 with a 25 pound weight that I had to push over my head when I came up.  I tried to do it with a 20 pound weight in each hand but it was just to much for me.  I'm more than a little sore after doing those and for some reason I have this awful feeling I'm going to be doing some more tomorrow. 

What exercise do you hate like the least but do anyway?

Monday, September 2, 2013


Recently I've been struggling with motivation and finding the motivation to get to the gym and work out when I'm not working out with my trainers.  Lately my workouts have been severely lacking and I've only been getting in workouts twice a week for a few weeks now (those workouts being the days I'm with my trainers).  It's nobody's fault but my own but the honest truth is that I've just been de-motivated.  I keep finding excuses not to go to the gym like the fact that I've put it off and it's too late, I've got too much work to do, or just because I talked myself out of it.  That old "I'll hit it twice as hard tomorrow if I skip today" excuse just isn't flying anymore.  Tomorrow comes and there's another excuse waiting to keep me from going to the gym.

Needless to say, my weight loss has taken a hiatus and I'm stuck staring at the same damn number on the scale.  Thankfully I'm getting my sugar binging under control and my eating has been a LOT better than it was.  If i hadn't then I probably would have started gaining by now.  My motivation has been so lacking that I've even googled "motivation" to see if I can find some on the internet.  I didn't but I did find some advice from a fellow blogger, Joel Runyon.  He says,
"Motivation is overrated. Get disciplined instead.  In short: motivation is fleeting. Those people who who depend on motivation consistently start out with a big bang and fail as soon as something gets hard. As soon as the motivation dries up, they quit. The people who accomplish things get disciplined."
I think this was more frustrating for me because that's exactly what I did.  I started with a huge bang and dragged my entire family with me.  I was determined to get things done and I was doing it!  But still, somewhere along the line my motivation went awol and I'm standing here floundering, not getting anything done.  After reading Joel's post I realized that I needed to just do it and keep doing it until it's habit.

My resolve for the month of September is to get over myself and just do it.  I don't want to go to bed at night unless I know that I did at least one workout that day, whether it was running, burpies, or throwing weights around my front yard.  I just need to do something everyday.  Luckily I have great trainers that recognized my struggle and are putting steps in place to make sure I succeed.  Ultimately though, it's up to me and only me.  If I want the results I have to put in the work.