Tuesday, April 30, 2013

A Pound for Your Thoughts?

Today has NOT been a great day.  I woke up this morning, like I always do, got the scale out, like I always do, and there it was.  Staring at me.  The stupid pound that I had GAINED.  For no reason.  Absolutely no freakin reason.  I did everything I was supposed to; I drank a gallon of water and ate all the right foods but for some reason I still gained a pound.  It's extremely frustrating when I'm only eating 500 calories and I gain a pound.  In fact, it makes me ask myself why I'm even doing this to myself in the first place.  It makes me think about cheating.  I'm sure for you other dieters, you can relate.  It's irritating, right?  Heck yes it is! 

So I did the responsible thing any other adult would do, I took a deep breath and called my step-dad on the phone to whine.  (He's doing this diet with me.)  I have to admit that through this whole thing he's been my voice of reason.  He can usually talk me off the cheating ledge, so to speak, and that's exactly what he did today.  He was able to calm me down and make me think about the consequences of cheating.  He told me not to let it get to me that it was just one day and tomorrow I could lose two pounds but if I were to cheat I would most definitely gain more weight.  Then he told me that he's hit a wall and hasn't lost a single pound in three days.  Suddenly gaining a pound really didn't seem so bad. 

I'm happy to announce that I didn't cheat, I stayed strong and stuck to my diet.  Hopefully tomorrow will bring me more weight loss but if not, it's okay.  It's just temporary and I know I will lose the weight.  I'm curious for you dieters out there, how do you talk yourself off the ledge?  Is it as frustrating for you as it is for me when you don't lose or you instead gain weight if you're doing everything you should?  What are your thoughts?

Monday, April 29, 2013

1st Goal: Crushed it

Today I am excited.  Today is a pretty remarkable day.  Today is the day that I've finally gotten under 300 pounds!  I weighed in this morning at 298.4 lbs.  That's 28.4 pounds down from where I started and I did it in only 26 days!  Those last few pounds felt like they would never come.  I was only losing ounces for the past couple days and then I get on the scale yesterday and today for a combined weight loss of 3 pounds, finally pushing me over the edge of 300.  I have to say I'm excited to see it go and I will do my damnedest to make sure that I never see it on the scale again.

If you read my last post you know that getting under 300 lbs was my first goal.  I can't tell you how good it feels to know that I've reached it and that when I go to pamper myself at the spa I've earned it.  I got my phone book out and immediately started calling around to places to check on prices and such.  The funny thing is, the spa I chose had more to do with the lady on the phone than anything else.  

She did all the normal things you'd expect a receptionist to do, she talked about amenities and gave me prices, but then she asked me if there was a special reason I was treating myself.  So I started to tell her what it was and she got so excited she kept interrupting me.  She was genuinely happy for me and she didn't even know who I was.  So that sold me right there and I ended up scheduling a meeting to go look at the spa and to purchase my package.  When I got there we ended up talking some more about weight loss and she told me that she used to be a prior fat girl herself.  She said her highest was in the 240's.  That's pretty large as she is a short, delicate little thing.  She said she lost over a 100 pounds!  It was a pretty emotional experience and we both started to cry and before I left it felt like we had been friends forever. 

I'm excited about reaching my first goal and going to the spa, but I think the feeling that I got talking to the receptionist was the best experience ever.  It felt so good to be able to share that experience with her and to actually meet and talk to someone face to face that went through the exact same thing that I'm going through.  I know in the end when I finally get to my ideal weight that the journey will be worth it.  I'll get to enjoy more spa days along the way because now I can.  I don't have to be worried or self conscious about my weight any longer.  How I look right now, while better than I did, is just a phase.  This is no longer who I am. 

Friday, April 26, 2013


I spent some time in my last post talking about motivation and different things that work for me.  One of the things that I forgot to mention is goal setting.  Now this may or may not be something that works for you but I think that no matter what diet you're on you need to have some sort of reward system for yourself.  For me, I use goal setting as a way to get there.  I've set four goals for myself in regards to my weight and for each milestone I reach I have a reward set for myself.  So lets review:

My weight loss goals are as follows:

1. Goal:  To get under 300 lbs (My starting weight is 326.8).  Reward:  A full spa day
2. Goal:  To reach 250 lbs.  Reward:  I get to buy a bicycle (I can't ride one currently because of my weight.)
3. Goal: To get under 200 lbs.  Reward: Horseback riding (I can't ride one of those either!)
4. Goal:  To reach my ultimate goal weight (a total loss of 176.8 lbs) of 150 lbs.  Reward:  Go on a European cruise (Preferably with a hot man by my side!)

Those are my first four goals.  Now I'll be honest, when I set these goals at first I really thought they were a long way off so I didn't put much thought into them.  In other words, they weren't a huge motivator for me.  Then I started getting closer and closer to my first goal and the closer I get the more excited I am until suddenly this has become a huge motivator.  I really want that spa day, dang-it!  Now I'm only two pounds away from reaching that goal and I've already been researching my spa choices.

Like I said, setting goals may or may not work for you.  The important thing is to find out what does and to use it to keep you on track to your ultimate goal!  Just remember:  If you set a reward for yourself, don't make it about food.  Give yourself a non-edible treat for your new healthy body!

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Everyone Needs A Little Motivation!

Whether you are looking to lose 50 pounds or a 150 pounds it's important to keep motivated.  Motivation to lose weight and to keep going is the only thing that stops me from getting in my car and running straight to the drive-thru at Taco Bell or just giving up completely.  Staying motivated keeps me going when all I want to do is just give up.  It's gets me pumped up and over the humps.  While I can't tell you what's going to keep you motivated I can share some of the things I use for motivation and inspiration.  Hopefully that will give you some ideas.

 One of my favorite things is my Fitness Wall.  I'm still adding things to it but right now it contains some of my favorite quotes to keep me going when I think about cheating.  It has my fat pictures so I can see what I never want to be again.  It also has a couple of things I want to do when I reach my goal weights, like going on a cruise and being able to finally ride a bike!
Something I do everyday is weigh myself.  I keep track of every pound I lose with these pebble bowls, as I call them.  Every time I lose a pound I take a pebble out of the chunky bowl and put it into my skinny bowl.  I've also included a note to myself at the bottem of the chunky bowl so that when I get close to being done, I can see that note and keep pushing that little bit farther.  Let me tell you, this is a great motivator!  I do not ever want to have to take a pebble away from the skinny side to put it back in the chunky side.  So far, I haven't had to do so!

I love to read other people's success and failure stories to help keep me motivated.  It's truely inspiring to see someone else go through what I'm going through and to know that they've come out on the other side a healthier individual.  It gives me hope that I can do it too! 

Social media has been a huge motivator for me.  I personally have a Facebook account and I sometimes post when I'm having a bad day or my weight losses.  The encouragement that I get from friends and family is truly inspiring. 

Blogging has recently become a new passion of mine.  I hope that the longer I blog the better it gets but for now just putting it out there and knowing that people are reading it is a great way for me to stay accountable.  I do not want to have to put on there, anymore than I already have, that I cheated or that I gained weight.  It's great motivation to stick to my diet.  Eventually I hope that with this blog I can help all of you to stay inspired just like reading other blogs does the same for me.

Lastly but not least, my health.  Since I've started this weight loss journey some amazing things have happened.  I've quit smoking and I've given up all the junk food I used to eat.  Because of those I can now breathe easier, I have more energy, I'm no longer taking my diabetic medication, and my blood sugar and cholesterol have come way down to were they are supposed to be.  I know that I never want to be put back on my medication so it keeps me motivated to get healthy and keep eating right. 

These are the things that keep me motivated to stay strong.  What motivates you?

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

In the Words of Nike, "JUST DO IT"

For the past three weeks that has been my Mantra, I even have it written on my wall to remind myself when I have a moment of weakness and I'm tempted to cheat.  Thank heavens I'm not tempted that much anymore so I don't have to remind myself on an hourly basis like I did the first week.  That first week was by far the hardest!

If you've never heard of the HCG diet let me explain.  It's broken down into 3 phases.  The first phase is two days and all you do is load up on fat while you take the HCG drops.  The second phase is a 500 calorie diet while you take the drops for 20-40 days or however long you want; I'm choosing to do the 40 days my first round.  The third week is 3-6 weeks of maintenance, depending on how long your second phase goes, and during maintenance you do not take the drops and you bump your calories up to 1500 a day.  You can exercise during phase 3 but it's not recommended for phase 2.  

Right now I'm on day 19 of phase 2.  The first 2 days of phase 1  is a cakewalk.  You just load up on as much fat as your body can handle without puking.  I ate taco bell, ice cream, cheesecake, mashed potatoes, whatever I wanted.  You name it I probably ate it.  The worst I can say about this phase is that I had a bellyache by the time it was over because I ate so much.  The second phase is not so easy however.  I applaud those of ou who have amazing willpower and go throughout the entire phase without cheating, like my step-father for instance.  I, however, am not one of them.  I thought about cheating every single day for the first week.  It was super hard to just keep driving past all the fast food restaurants that seemed to be on every corner.  My first dinner on phase 2 was super small compared to my normally loaded plates, not to mention I'm used to going back for seconds and thirds.  I struggled with feeling hungry after eating, my brain wasn't used to processing such small portions.  I was constantly thinking about food and what I couldn't eat the first week.  I had to psych myself out and cut up all my fruits, veggies, and meats into itty bitty portions so that my plate looked fuller.  It didn't help that during my first week a friend of mine baked me a cake for my birthday and surprised me with it.  I won't lie, I totally ate a piece of that cake.  I made excuses that I didn't want to hurt her feelings by telling her I was on a diet but in all reality I just wanted some cake.  So I ate a piece, and regretted it instantly.  I was immediately filled with guild and that little piece of cake made me instantly have a tummy ache.  After a week my body wasn't used to such sugary foods and I felt it pretty quickly.  I ended up taking the rest of the cake to a nearby friend's house so I wouldn't take it home.  I went home renewed with determination to just do it and not give in to the urge to cheat.  My first week I lost 10.6 lbs. 

Halfway through my second week I flew to Utah to watch my friend's children while they went out of town.  I didn't drink enough water on the plane and the next morning I had gained 5 pounds!  MAKE SURE YOU DRINK YOUR WATER!  It was pretty heartbreaking to get on the scale and see that I had gained back 5 pounds.  That week in Utah was a tough one.  It is extremely hard to stick to a strict diet when you have to cook for someone else.  I have a newfound respect for mother sand wives out there trying to diet, it's crazy hard!!  I struggled with it the entire week I was there.  The kids were great and helped me to stay accountable but I still cheated.  I didn't do as bad as I thought I would but I didn't do as well as I had hoped either.  For the most part I did pretty well in sticking to the diet though.  My parents were a big source of encouragement while I was gone.  They called me everyday and talked me through my struggle.  I encourage you to find someone to keep you accountable and to encourage you in moments of weakness; it made all the difference for me.  Even though I cheated I still left Utah several pounds lighter.
So here I am in my third week and things are going great!  I'm on day and I've lost a total of 22 lbs so far!  I can honestly say that I don't think about food like I did when I started and I have not cheated since I've been home.  I now feel full after I eat and my plate no longer looks empty.  My cravings for unhealthy food are less and I can look at those foods and realize I was poisoning my body with them.  The best news for me though is that after 3 weeks I'm not longer taking my diabetic medication and my blood sugar is in the "normal" range.  So take my advice and JUST DO IT!  I promise you it gets easier and if you have a bad day just remember that it's just one day.  Tomorrow you can do better!

Monday, April 22, 2013

The Ugly Truth

Hi, I'm Jenèa.

I'm 25 years old, I am obese, and I'm tired of it.  I've always been chunky but it seems like I've just packed on the weight the last seven years or so.  We don't have the best eating habits in my family-both my mother and step father are obese as well.  We have a family history rich with heart disease, cancer, kidney disease, and diabetes (among others).  Not only am I headed down that road but last year I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes.  My doctors have been telling me for years that I need to lose weight and start eating healthier.  I didn't listen then and now I've got diabetes.  It scared me enough when I was diagnosed that I joined a gym, reduced my portions, and tried eating healthier.  None of it worked.  I was too tired to work out for long so I wasn't burning enough calories, not to mention how painful it was, and then I'd get so down on myself that I would just end up right back where I started:  in the drive-thru line at Taco Bell.  Inevitably what little progress I did make was reversed and I ended up just putting the weight back on, never losing much to start with.  Ultimately I just lost all motivation to continue and I went back to what I knew best:  Eating.  I started to get depressed because all of the diets I was trying weren't really working and I wasn't seeing very many results.  I ended up getting put on diabetic medication because my blood sugars were getting extremely high and I was sitting out on a lot of things my friends and family were doing because I was too big to do them.  I never went swimming, I couldn't ride horses or go to amusement parks because I couldn't ride the rides, heck I can't even ride something as simple as a bicycle because I was over the weight limit.  It was getting to the point that people would ask me what my hobbies are and I would answer movies, books, and scrap-booking because I couldn't and didn't do anything else. 
            I was getting desperate for a change and I needed to find some way to lose the weight.  Eventually I started looking into gastric bypass surgery because I felt sure that nothing else would work.  Then last month I was visiting some friends of mine and they told me about the HCG diet.  I had heard of it before but I'd also heard how unhealthy it could be and I was skeptical of such a low calorie diet.  I learned a bit more about the diet and the drops and I agreed to look at some of the success stories of people who have tried the HCG diet.  It sold me.  I knew without a doubt that I wanted to be one of those success stories!  These are regular people, in the same predicament as me, and they lost huge amounts of weight.  That's the kind of plan I was looking for.  I was so pumped about this diet that I took it home to my parents.  My step-dad agreed to try it with me while my mom decided to go vegan.  I felt more excited and motivated than I had in a long time.
Here are my starting measurements (be warned, I measured everything!) and pictures:
Weight:  326.8 lbs
Neck:  16.5 in.
Right bicep:  19 in
Left Bicep:  17 1/4 in.
Right forearm:  12 in.
Left forearm:  11.5 In.
Bust:  56 1/4 in.
belly:  57 3/4 in.
hips:  55 in.
Right thigh:  24.5 in.
Left thigh:  24 1/4 in.
Right calf:  19.5 in.
Left calf:  19 in.

So there it is, the ugly truth.  I'm obese, sure, but I'm finally choosing to do something about it.  My question for you is what have you done today to become healthier?

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Welcome Skinny Dippers!

From chunky dunkin' to skinny dippin' is our journey to a healthier life and a rockin' bod. Hopefully through our journey we can help others on theirs.